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Name: Meghan
Birthday: 12/5/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Acro, taking showers, aim, pepsi, photography, summer thunderstorms, shopping for cool socks, reading the comics and the kid's post, volleyball, listening to musak (Rooney, Modest Mouse, Hot Hot Heat, Weezer), doodling, eating snow, burning CDs, bright colors, yelling so everyone turns around and stares, slamming against doors/lockers/walls like they do in james bond movies, eating pancakes and burrito ultimos, happy/sad/mad/angry llamas, doing laundry and not folding it, palm trees and sunsets,
having too much fun to worry about what other people think...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Kangarooboo7
Yahoo:  Megaroo117
Member Since:
8/25/2004
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| omg wow i havent been on here forever
i didnt even realize i had changed my layout.
whoaaa
regionals is over, yay
AND NATIONALS IS COMING!! YESSS
almost there!! i can do it!!
oh, and school's over too!! alleluia!!
so im happy. field day was fun yesterday. and today is the random day in between field day and graduation. so, i painting my nails and doing random crap on the computer.
AND OMGGGG I DID MY FULL ON THE FLOOR YESTERDAY ALL BY MYSELF!! OMGGG YAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYYAYYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYYAY!!! | | |
| whatever... a whole bunch bothers me in my new xanga layout, but i dont feel like changing it. | | |
| SPRING BREAK!! yayy
school's fine. über (he he) stressful.. but okay.
acro's... getting better. even though im still... frustrated, we're doing well. and it's weird, but i think once mackenzie kinda found out what the whole meeting with resi was about (me not wanting to be with her), she's REALLY stepped up her game. she NEVER cries anymore (unless she just got hurt) and she has being working really really hard in routines. so i dont know WHAT to think anymore. im just going all with the flow.
FLORIDA IN TWO DAYS!! TUESDAY!! YESS!!!!
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| allllllll righty!!! im updating....
a lot as happened actually. i cant remember way far back, but recently, i went to belgium selection camp in texas, although it wasnt to be selected BECAUSE MACKENZIE JUST DIDNT "WANT" TO but just as a normal meet. Naturally, Mackenzie starts bawling, 10 minutes before we go on. so i console her, and im being realllll patient and everything, BUT IT KEEPS ON COMING!! and this is BALANCE too! she's GOOD at balance!!! i dont get it!! then we have to walk out and salute to the judges, and do our "five minute touch" where we just practice our skills real briefly, and she was STILL CRYING when we saluted to them. then resi (head coach) came over and was like what's going on?! and juli (assiantant coach) and i told her that mack was "scared"... and of course resi was like PSHH whatever, you're fine, and because she was more preoccupied with everyone actually trying for belgium, she left. and we didnt have to go right away, we had like, another 8 minutes or so to wait, and during that time, she was INCONSABLE! nothing i, juli, or her mom would say would make her stop crying. then it was time for us to go.... AND SHE WOULDNT DO IT. then juli just pushed her and said "go, you're doing it." and mack did it. BUT WAS CRYING IN THE ROUTINE, while I WAS BEING ALL SMILY AND PERKY AND HAPPY. then like the second we walk off the floor, she's fine. after that, she's EXTREMELY hyper and i was like mack, are you kidding me. you make such a big deal about the EASY rountine, and as soon as its over, THEN you realize you shouldnt have made such a big deal out of it. and also kerrie (my other top) hurt her foot in practice the night before, but we did well, but it just caused a lot of stress. yea
and of course, BOTH groups that try for belgium make it, and nothing can explain the utter anger and frustration im feeling with mackenzie. and so i cry all sunday (the day we get back) and the next day my parents and i have a meeting with resi, telling her that I DONT want to be with mack anymore because it's killing me! her crying like everyday is killing me! and i dont even know if she WANTS to do acro anymore. but basically resi REALLY wanted me to just finish the year with her, JUST as a favor to resi, nothing more, and then we would shift my focus to my trio, and we would try to go level 9 and go to Poland. wellllll poland didnt work out. and the level 9 plan's not doing too well either, b/c kerrie has panic attacks about flipping, even when resi is never letting go of her in the air. so i dunno. and apparently becky (my top from last year, in level 10) is moving back.... so im kind of going on that right now...
wow, i definitly need to just let all that stuff go. im over-obsessing about all of it, and im sick right now, and it's definitly not good for me. so ill try to relax, keep going, and make the best of this year.
wow, what a heavy post, huh? | | |
| well, acro's just going swell. yipppee.
i'm so sick of all this drama and mental pyscho-ness. why can't we all just get what we want/be happy?! argh!! why do i have mental blocks?! argghh!!! | | |
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